Uncle Lee

Just heard from my Aunt, Esther that Uncle Lee has passed away.

Time flies. Many years have passed by. I knew Uncle Lee when I was 10 years old. My Mum introduced him to my brother and me. We were told to lied. My Mum said she has no choice
as she needs to support both of us. I knew she lied too. She told
Uncle Lee she was a divorcee. We were still staying with my Father
and she still goes to bed with my Father and Uncle Lee.

Although I was young, I knew what was "shameless" at that age. Uncle Lee operated a Brothel at Geylang Lorong 16. I went there a few times when I was young. I knew that was not a good place.

I could not understand why she did that. Why must she became Uncle Lee 3rd wife? She is nothing. She is not even registered marriage to him. She just want to have a good life. She just want to open leg and serve men. That's shameless...

Uncle Lee treated my younger brother very well. I was ugly then. No one loved me. He bought many toys for him but I never have any. I
could not remember any gifts that was given to me by him. My Mum only asked for my brother but not me.

I believe in Fate. My Mum and me has no relationship even though she
gave birth to me. She wanted me to die when she felt sad or after a
heated quarrel with my Father. I was asked to jump down from 14th
storey and die but I did not. I told myself, I must be strong. Never
look back. Look forward! At least that's what that pushes me till today.

Uncle Lee never loved me. My Mum never loved me. My Dad never loved me.

Uncle Lee has passed away.

I have no feeling for him. I have no feeling for them.

My heart has stopped functioning from the day I was asked to die.